;Saturday, October 20, 2007
today was out with my beloved mei =) zhiling . she acc me go interview =)guess if i working must likely working at charles&keith if not polo raulph lauren ((: for retail luhs . if not admin work =)) . after th interview we went wisma atria because girl wan go sony ercission there ask her phone thingy luhs =) then after that we went cine to walk walk :) at first girl wanted to eat burger king then we change our mind to eat pasta mania but i got sudden craving for mac so we went around searching for mac . hhaas . then we pass by taka again and i saw my cliques there with their frnd . i just hi-bye to dems first cause i am hungry lerhs =X then me and girl we went to lucky plaza to have mac as our dinner . then boyfrndd call me say he can come out for awhile and i thot he'll come find me cause i miss him alot luhs. then in th end we ended up quarreling =( sometime i really dontknow what i wan . i only know i loves my boyfrndd but since like we arent supposed to be together i dontknow why =( my sister always bad-mouth boyfrndd but i keep siding him even though sometime what my sister say is true but i still dont care and continue to loves him more because i keep believing that he'll care and loves me better and he wouldnt ever lies to me again . but yet he always disappoint me with his lies =( but i still chose to stick wtih him. even though sometime he always need to coax me and i know i got a fcuking attitude but thats me you have to accept & i hate pple shouting at me yet boyfrndd still did & he cant shout at me because he is my boyfrndd ~ & today is not th first time liaos . then after that girl went off with her frnd and ps me alone sitting at th roadside with so many car passing by ~ & at that moment i suddenly think that my life is meaningless liaos so i call ivon asking where they all and she told me that they are still at take there intend to went over to find dms but kind of lazy wait for rachh and gail to come over to find me . when crossing from lucky plaza to taka i just feel like going to give that car to bang at least babyy can request to come hospital to see me but rachh dhey all keep pulling me back ~ i know dhey care bout me but sometime i really feel that life is totally meaningless liaos . & i just hope to see babyy luhs . mayb i am just dumb when he is like just ignoring me ~ after that slack at taka with ivon dhey all then me and rachh and ivon intend to go espl there while gail and qiqi go home . so we all mrt to cityhall ~ then at citilink babyy call me asking me where am i ~ at first we still talk quite nicely then at espl there bout 11 like that me and babyy started quarreling on th phone again . fcuk luhs ~ then he hang off liaos i still msg him sorry . GRR ~ i am stressed out liaos . i always wanted to cry but i told myself to remain strong because i dont wish my anyone to see my weak side though my cliques they always see but i dont wish to let others see . so whenever i got problems i just swallow it in my heart ~ like nothing happenn and no one will cares ~ after that bout 11.20 we went to take mrt cause later scared no mrt marr. then they go backk hougang cause dhey going other place then i went to kovan to meet my lil bitch to acc her eat mac . i am so nice to her luhs . acc her til 2 like that we take cabbed home reach home at bout 2 plus luhs . even though to others loving you is a mistakes i still continue because i know you loves me too =) i be th happy me i wouldnt let you see th weak side of me .
Messedsy&& 2:20 AM
