♥ happiness is not something ready made. it comes from your own actions ;

;Wednesday, April 30, 2008

OH IS LIKE WHAT TH FCUK

i woke up in th early morning to have my breakfast
then went back to catch a few winks of sleep
wake up le then on my lappy then went rachh blog
GUESS WHAT I FOUND ?! make me wanna laugh like fcuk . hhaas

MY GIRLFRIENDS AND SIHUA
this videos make me laugh til stomach pain esp th part when gail dance.hhaas.

going to bathe and prepare to go for my lesson le (;
meetinggg bahengg later on

Messedsy&& 3:32 PM

;Tuesday, April 29, 2008

well th interview was a unsucessful one :(
think is cause i nervous :( but nevermindd
hopefully i get one real soon (;

after interview went cine with mama to have breakfast ~
i wan to buy a guess bag that is HUGE hhaas.but is damn nice can mummy dont want buy for me _|_
cause i tell her next time i runaway from home can use th bagg hhaas
AWWRS hopefully there will still be nicer one so i can buy (;

then walk awhile both of us mrt home .
reach home
i catch some nap
then saw th pple msg me my mood was quite dampen by then .
but nevermindd (:
someone intros me job please ~

i need cash to buy my own thinggg ~

Messedsy&& 8:12 PM

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i cant get to sleep :(
kind of nervous about th interview tmr :(
john told me that th sucess rate of me getting th job will be quite high
but i am afraid i will make a fool of myself tmr :(
so scared and worry .

& john told me too . if i get th job no matter how tough or hard also must hang on
cannot quit if not will be black listed
ON MAN I AM SO SCARED CAN ~

anyone can give me morning call tmr at 8am ?

i guess i will nervous til toss here there
so prepared to have dark ring tmr ~

SBH (: takecare of yourself during fieldcamp luh , dont worry too much & pray that you wouldnt see that kind of thingg again.hhaas.

to my girlfriend (: i've already give in alot le cant you have th initative to contact me yourself ? all dont you treat me as friend anymore le ?

i'm so confused right now :( i'm so stress with so many thingg i want to be happy luh ~ you'll still be dearly loved by me no matter what.

EDITED

oh like what th fcuk i sleep at 4 am plus hhaas xD
i am awake thanks to bahengg wake up call (:
he very cute de can keep callingg de hhaas.i think he scared i sleep back luh
but i dont even dare hhaas.
going out soon le (;
GOOD LUCK FOR MY INTERVIEW
i am feeling hungry right now :(
but no choice if i eat sure going to be late de .

Messedsy&& 1:09 AM

;Monday, April 28, 2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY & DASAO (:

today stay at home again cause daddy need go his new shop do thingg :(
goingg to buy Agnesb wallet (: one gold and silver (:
which dont really cost that much
but i'm wonderingg whether is authentic not -.-
& my friend ask her supplier and is sure auth (:
i even ask bahengg if he want a Agnesb coin purse cause he's always using a black purse hhaas.

somehow i still feel sadd bout what my BESTFRIEND did to me . but i am not a mean or bad person afterall .
so mayb forgive and forget bah .
dontknow whether we still can carry on be friends not .
she didnt even msg me or call me lorr
hais :(

i gonna sleep early tonight
havingg interview tmr in th morninggg
WISH ME GOOD LUCKS EHS .
is time i work since i rot from last oct til now xD

& i am tryingg to concentrate on studies too though i know is difficult but i'll try .

Messedsy&& 3:11 PM

;Sunday, April 27, 2008

friday (;
peck peck came over to my house then i prepared then went over to rachh house for th very last time :(
i sure gonna miss that place badly ~
since sec two we've been visiting her house as and when we like as long as she is free (:
then whether i am bored at home
i will go her house de lorr
but next time i boredd i dontknow can go where le :(
then me and ivon slack awhile le we then go take bus to buigs ~
reach buigs around 9.30 -.-
then waited for zhengyonggg to end work
bus back hpme together.
some conflict again -.-
but many ask me not to blogg out .
so nevermindd luh .
see how it goes again lorr

sat (:
went movie session at tamp with th girls & bahengg
hansel and gretel -.- some part shocked me out
but is not a good show afterall .
then backk to hougangg slack with ivon ; rachh & bahenggg
send rachh home then wait for bagay shu shu then acc him go eat then go homeee

sun(:
went out with family cause tmr mummy birthday (: & also da sao birthday (:
happy advanced birthday to both of them (:
then went to dinner at a restaurant in balestier road (;
th whole dinner cost 435 dollar (:
which dont have any nice food and only less variety . th mineral water 50 cent 1 cup so day light robbing can lol. then we call 10 cup of mineral water 9 cup of lime juice that cost 1.80 each
but never is worth it =) hhaas
then went tamp giant to get our daily needs
but only buy tibits ; shinchan disc ; fruits ; sushi no more and all this cost 85 bucks . lots of tibit (:
then backk to heartland mall to get a cake for mummy and i buy my favourite ice cream family pack de (:
then dad drove us homee again

reach home str8 on com (:

Messedsy&& 10:25 PM

;Friday, April 25, 2008

was readingg QISM blogg (:
she and her boyfriend is getting real sweet (:
babe,last longg with your boy ehs :D
i loves you too .

i do envy lovingg couple luh .
but now i prefer to stay singlee (:
i want to have umpteen of fun ~ lots of freedom not being restrict . though i am luh .lol

i'm like tryingg to find work ? so yar i can get more cash to buy stuff for myself .
& my mummy birthday is like comingg but sorry mum,i'm brokee

then john birthday ; younger brother & rachh & more up comingg birthday
so what can i do ? need work to have cashh ~

anyone can intros me job ?
(:

Messedsy&& 4:14 PM

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60 words

Speed test

this game make me so kanchiong and angry luh . hhaas.

stayingg at homee for this few days .
i really kind of stress on what to do can :(
but never i will stay cheerful (:
hees.

Messedsy&& 1:28 AM

;Wednesday, April 23, 2008

wake up by my mother (:

play this SPEEDTEST THINGY

48 words

i will train to be stronger lol xD
goingg to prepared le . i'm goingg for my lesson later (:

i'll lead my life happier (:

Messedsy&& 3:19 PM

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finally i clear up all th thinggs le (:
hopefully we're still good friends afterall (:
you know i still loves you :)

i will edit some of my post to make thingg look better (:

Messedsy&& 12:31 AM

;Tuesday, April 22, 2008

WELL DONE (:

let me clarify thinggg now (:
since when i say ask pple to claim money from bahengg ?
well , let me tell you i may not always spend money with you guys,but th fact is my house is still consider quite wealthy (: my close friends know (: in fact i go out with bahengg except movie he pay cause always he go buy . others is all i pay myself de (: so stop thinkingg that i'm a poor kiddos (:

another thinggg , since when i ask bahengg not to meet yanggyii they all ? i only say i very shy to see them because how to say last time when i still with john , we all always got go out with them de ! understand ? so dont put words in my mouth (:

another one ,since when i keep go out with guys ? i go out with benson no wronggg ? he's my brother so close to my family de ! & i sit his bike at least when i still with john i got tell him (: i never hide anythinggg from him (: i dont need to hide at all (: i'm truthful to my boyfriend & i dont tell him my friend ask me go de etc .

another thingg,STOP BEiNGGG A HYPOCRITE (:
ask him patch with me , then ask another one he sure wan be with me not ? then ask me patch with th one who you all ask he sure want be with me not ?! what wrongg with you ? did i ever bad mouth you before ? think twice uhs (:

i dont mindd sayingg all this out is because i am not scaredd (: i didnt do anythingg wrongg ! i only want to let pple know th truth

thanks to my girls & peeps who told me everythinggg and i also clarify thingg with john le (: if you all think that by bad mouthing me will do any good to you all.sorry no (: what for back stabbed me behindd ? tell me straight isnt it better ? what for do this ? mayb to you all i am nothingg but to others i am still precious okay ! and i do thingg i dare admit why want like push blame to other leh ? i didnt expect myself to post this to lorr !
but i just want to let everyone understand th truth of this !
well , i'm innocentt (:

i know you all enjoyy seeing pple hate me (: but for what sia ? not everyone will believe you all cause some pple really know me well de.yar so what if i have my flaws?dont you have yours?at least i dont go back stabbinggg pple ? and i dont hide thinggg luh ? & oh yar one more thinggg (:
i go dance with kahhwei so what if i put my hand on his shoulders? is normal okays ! dumb ass ! dancinggg leh ? also never anyhoww ?! and we're very close friend leh (:
and i also never give guys no. from internet luh ! i th most intro only ! where got give pple no etc ?
i sit bike also like everyone can see what we doingg? i do thingg very "guan ming zheng da de leh"
i never sit guys cars cause more dangerous and car can do more thingg lorr (: so i know that is dangerous goingg out with not very close guy i never sit their car etc . so well dont worry (:

okays now everythinggg understand ?
so anymore thingg to say bout me ?
i loves my girls & boys (:

Messedsy&& 1:52 AM

;Monday, April 21, 2008

fcuk i just dontknow what th hell i'm blogging about can -.-
hais :(
i dontknow what wrongg with me

been laughingg and cryingg yesterday luh
kindd of maddd -.-
dont say le luh (:

sorry to my friends .

Messedsy&& 1:03 PM

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i think somehow i shld really hate you all !

say more bad thingg about me (:
cause what you all say wouldnt really affect me (: but only make me hate you all more

when i am a changed girl you all better dont regret (: i'll totally changeee (:

i feel like disappearinggg (:
die ? or just disappear for a longg timee
hais.i'm feelinggg so stress and lost .

well i'm just pretendinggg to be happyyyy

i guess i am just a bad girl (: no good point at all :)

thanks john (: daniel (: my girlfriend (: sam kor (: bomba (:

Messedsy&& 12:06 AM

;Thursday, April 17, 2008

went to my lesson yesterday at tampp (:

meet up with keith talk cock luh . he say i very violent :(
lol.then we slack til 7 plus 8 i take bus backk to hougangg to meet up with ben ben ben . lol
went off to meet dwayne & off to AMK hub :)

then wait for dwayne to buy his havanias ~
then walk aroundd then went to their bikes there sit chit chat then to th bikes shop at seragoon central (:
then slack all th way til 12 at there -.-
totally boringg for me .

then to defu lane to get somethinggg
then to prata house to eat (:

then went over to block 18 to meet up with weiqiangg
talk cock etc luh .

then 2 am plus
HOME SWEET HOME (:

Messedsy&& 2:41 PM

;Monday, April 14, 2008

monday blue~
is just gonna be another boringgg dayy

yesterday 2 am plus go balestier with daddy ; mummy & my sister to have our supper
but th place close liaos
so we went joo chiat to eat fei fei wanton mee instead (:

i dontknow what to do to make it alright?!
i just dont want neither of them to feel sad ~

boringgg day ~

Messedsy&& 7:43 PM

;Sunday, April 13, 2008

(:
yesterdayy meet up with bahenggg for a movie session at vivo :)
reach vivo saw yelrihs & her friend.
then we went over to buy th ticket for " RUN PAPA RUN " quite a nice show luh ~

then after that acc him go eat
saw my dearest bitch sister ; ZHILINGGGG
then we bused to clarke quay then walk here and there
then wait for peck peck to come.
then we go mac slackk thennn to boat quay to meet up with th rest (:
OMG ~ my buddy;ivan is a good dancer !
so nice can (:

then acc ivonn to meet ahsenggg they all
for lil drinkinggg session
then saw ting's friend jermaine at BOSS there (:
then i went back to meet bahenggg & cos.
techno so boringgg
so waited for r'n'b to shake shake awhile lol xD
then my mum call bahengggg lol
cause my phone silent mode -.-
then cabbed home with him and ivon
reach home bout 4.15 am
so think we left at around 4 (:

then today my lil brother ask me bringgg him out with bahenggg
so bahengg meet us at my house downstair .
then went to meet up with bagay shushu.

then to hougang mall both of them want eat (;
then after eatinggg my brother wan play arcade . so bringg him there lorr
then now home sweet homee
going out with familys to eat

Messedsy&& 5:15 PM

;Saturday, April 12, 2008

ALL OUT OF LOVE ~
I'M SO LOST WITHOUT YOU :(

i'm a unlovable bitch ~
keith say i too fierce liaos
what th hell siaaa
neverminddd ~
i know myself well (:

SO CHANGE FOR TH BEST .
hopefully
i will be a lovable bitch in th future (:

yetsterday meet up with bahenggg and kahhweii
then also meet up with
LITINGGG ! and shuichingg and andrea (:
then after that went back to find bahenggg ; kahhweii ; jessie and weishenggg
then kahhwei me and bahengg cabb back to hougang plaza
they have one round of billard
then we went over 327 to eat (:

then home sweet homee

i going out soon le
update later (:

Messedsy&& 1:16 PM

;Friday, April 11, 2008

(:
yesterday night went out with kahhweii (:
both of us cabbed to dhoby gaut meet up with manfred ; yvonne ; bomba & jialuo
is my dearest bitch birthday (:

then we watch moviee
& everyone keep disturbing me _|_
was so irritated xD
then after th show
went backk to houganggg
th boys went for their dota session ~
left me and yvonne boringgg there .

then bout 2.30am like that
i really very tireddd
then walk home lorrr
is been so longgg since i go home alone at that kind of time
quite eerie and scared
but no choice . i over shot de tiredd liaos

reach home bathe
then sleep liaos .

this morning keep wake up
bcause LOTS of pple msg me early in th morningggg _|_
so now still quite tireddddd

my poor BIBI just finished operation :(
so babyyy rachhh say i cant play with her today :'(
so saddeninggg
so mayb th date of going to her house will be postponed to next week
so that means today i will be rotting ?~

Messedsy&& 2:44 PM

;Wednesday, April 9, 2008

IM BRINGING SEXYBACKKK ~

boringgggg
I WANT TO GO CLUBBINGGGGGGGG xD
but dontknow whenn
chatted with mummy and sister about movinggg out
mummy so realistic de
everything talk bout money

say we two move out
as long as every month give her money can liaos -.-
my sister and i buey tahan her lorr
lol.

where can i move to ?
must find a good job with good pay first then move (:
anyone want move with me ?
last time still got discuss with yvonne
but guess she cant move out luh
cause she only child somemore her boyfriend also dont let me anyhow bring her de _|_
lol xD
so MOVE ALONE :(
but dontknow when then can move
cause NO MONEY

unless my sister move out then i no need move le
cause without her nobody to KPKB (:
lol xD i'm bad ~ i know

today never go lesson
cause think my teacher is SICK
so will postponed to dontknow when
when he's back then discuss

now brother awhile play maple
awhile play dota
i so sians can :(

chatting my bomba in msn also

well ~ update again.
BORINGGGGGGGG
chatted with babyyyy rachhhh in msnn
crapping of lots of thinggggggggg
lol xD

KAHWEI DE XIN ALREADY DA YANG LIAOS . lols
disturbing him .

SO HOW ?
GIVE ME A SOLUTION LUH ?
"copyrighted by sibahenggg"

lol.that time i'm talking to bomba then i suddenly
so how ? give me a solution luh ?
he replied "you dont come and bahengg me horr"
lol -.-
boringg luh

this coming fri going rachhhh house :)
so gonna miss her house and BIBI

Messedsy&& 6:46 PM

;Tuesday, April 8, 2008

still feelingg sicks :(

i got many wishlist to do luh ~
# 01.study & pass my 'O' level
# 02.get a good job with good pay
# 03.faster 18 birthday
# 04.HAIR EXTENTSION !
# 05.get myself a new sweet boyfriend
# 06.CAR LICENSE
# 07.NEW HAIRCUT
# 08.more clubbingg for me
# 09.tons of freedoms
# 10.move out of my house & stay alone
# 11.plan for my own future
# 12.meet up often with my dearest BITCHES (:
# 13.CHANGE MY FCUKING ATTITUDE ~
# 14.latest handphone from japan
# 15.marry a wealthy husband in th future
# 16.better figure xD
# 17.tattoo at my waist .
# 18.more and more pretty and sexy =)(thats every girl wish)
# 19.beingg pamper
# 20.healthier lifestyle (:

well,i guess i am not really greedys bah xD
wake up quite early (:
thanks to my mum.
come in my room say this and say that -.-
then after that mum go out with my sister
stay at home with my dad as my two younger brother is still in school

:( poor me
my pandas eye is getting DARKER AND DARKER ='(
sleep at bout 4 am last night.
so tiring luh ~
guess i will try to sleep early tonight (;

now currently doing nothinggg
oh yar just get buidi's address from his brother
anyone want to write him a letter ?

wanted to play viwawa but lately dontknow what wrong with my labby
cannot play :(
so nevermindd
later going to ask my brother to teach me DOTA (=
if not wait for SIBAHENG book out ask him teach me =)
this sat feel like clubbing but heard from friends is techno de -.-
so sians :(
now chatting with my cutest bomba in msn hhaas
lol i from just now talk to him keep
"yeah darlinggggggggg"
lol =)

i am boreddd

Messedsy&& 2:48 PM

;Monday, April 7, 2008

my days have been awful luh ~

beingg nagg by my mum and sister
wonderful sis, i got _|_
she's always beingg sacrastic
no wonder me and my brother is starting ot detest her more and more

i really hate beingg at home
but i got no choice cause if i move out
NO CASH means no way to support myself -.-

ohh i'm feeling sick :(
chatted with wejian and marvin for th whole day
then bahengg msg me ask him called him
call him chat & of cause talk nonsense
he's forever entertaining me ~
lol

now i'm feeling awful :(
headache & all

i dontknow what th future may be
but i just wanna treasure everything i have now
trust me and give me all of your love (=
BECAUSE YOU LOVED ME
thats why i'm stronggg

Messedsy&& 11:23 PM

;Sunday, April 6, 2008

awwr~ i'm plain too lazy to update my bloggg

yesterday wake up early in th morning to meet JOHN (:
cause he's going india in th noon
so he came over to my house here and fetch me to get my breakfast/lunch then to his house
WELL,i'm like his maid
helping him pack his thing -.-
then after that his sister's boyfrndd came and fetch him to th airport

& i went to meet up with my girlfriends at interchange there
everyone of them is roller skating so th poor me tagg alongg
bcause i dontknow where to go xD
then have so much fun and laugher with them
& my ivon and gail really so cute when they fall lol xD
have steamboat there too
but th variety of ingredient is not alot
so all of us only eat chicken ; cockles & hot dog ; crab meat ...
then after steamboat all of them wanted to skate to PARKWAY PARADE~
so i spend my whole day walking with them & all of them skatinggg
my leg is like so sour ~
then we went to take 43 backk to seragoon
on th way some commotion between shawn and a malay guy sitting beside me
but i've to say th malay guy really quite of crazy -.-
he've been complaining alot since he is on th bus til he alight
then all of us alight at seragoon
gail & shir take mrt home
then me and rachh and ivon walkk (:
then walk til net force cause my stomach pain then me and rachh take bus

bused to hougang plaza to meet my brother and bahenggg
then slack til bout 1 plus go home
bahengg slack at my house til 4.30 am -.-
lol.

then today wake up
meet bahengg for a movie at vivo (:
th leaps year is a nice show luh
but at first we wanted to catch th show "shutter"
but thanks to him
we cannot catch up with th time
JOHN call me from india (:
(asking me to takecare of myselff)
dont worry,i will =)
see you when you're back luh

then after th show bout 6 plus we mrted back to kovan
& i have my dinner then home sweet home
while bahengg cabbed back to camp.

i know you're nice to me
but i just got no ideas on what to do.

Messedsy&& 9:08 PM

;Tuesday, April 1, 2008

this comingg thurs will be meeting johnn (:
we cant be lover at least we can be friends.

yesterday night my most beloved brother;baba lim came and look for me at my house here (:
that idiot drive car also need so longgg.lol
we chatted luh for 1 hour plus etc
cheer up brother (:
then after that he went off
& i go homee

then reach home not longgg
beloved brother call me chatted say he very boreddd lol (.")
my bitch rachh is also backk from bangkok
goingg to meet her soon (:

oh yar remember this sun?
i told you guys i am meetingg bahengg with my cousin
that stupid idiot
use hammer hit his legg luh
i see liaos keep shouting luh cause very scaredd marr
then tears just burst out of my eye luh :(
then after that he came down i very angry him luh
then three of us cabbed over to tan tock sengg
then stupidd bahengg sit on th wheel chair -.-
ask us register go in acc him
cause he say no one push him
in th end i saw him pushingg himself on th wheel chair -.-
damn funny but i see liaos more like he's playingg luh .
lol
then in th end also one day mc -.-
then at night th worst thing is
his legg cannot take mc he want do somethingg to his handd -.-
then he ask john and baba they all knock his handd etc
then th most make me angry de is baba use his car run over his handd
i was like WHAT TH FCUK ?
car over his handd?
then he and weiliang proceed to SINGAPORE CHANGI HOSPITAL
in th endd also cannot take mc -.-
stupidd

on monday morning he booked in -.-

Messedsy&& 1:29 PM