;Wednesday, January 26, 2011
2011 isnt a good year !
just after i finished uploading my post yesterday , awhile later , my mum and bro told me that my dearest ah gong passed away in china !
fml . fml . fml .
i hasnt been seeing him for the past few year,
i always tear whenever my sibling come back to tell me how is he doing now.
fcuk ! why didnt i go ?
now that he is gone forever.i hate myself.
i can't even acc him to walk his last journey
but sis and aunt is rushing there today !
not enough ticket le :'(
hais . fml fml fml .
i'm really helpless.filled with guilts and regret.
i cant stop crying . i cant stop thinking . i cant stop missing .
Messedsy&& 3:53 PM
;Tuesday, January 25, 2011
going to work for around 1 week le , & people is all starting to show their true self already , fast and furious . kind of turn off luh .
but i learn alot also . fake people are around you , just beware & keep a safe guard for yourself .
just pass my 20th birthday :) & now babylove birthday is reaching :D
i love my bibi <3 even though argument and disagreement is still hard to avoid . i still love him as much as i did before & is only going to increase.
hees :)
am working now , so update abit of my oh so dusty blog
been very long since i update , nothing much in my life
my birthday wishlist
- be prettier ; sexier ; hotter ( i want those angel face feature ; devils de figure) translate in chinese on your own uhs :)
- get my damn driving license -.- papa lee been nagging and nagging
- my parent to be healthy :)
- a lasting r/s with my bi <3 hopefully we can walk down the altar together
- me and my parent relationship can get better
- my siblings all to study well
- get a cert , in singapore very realistic , no cert no talk . lol
- learn dancing ^^ has always been what i want to do for many years le :)
- get some true friends :( fake people are all around , i hate it
- money money money
- get a saving account to save for rainy days
- insurance ; for saving purposes and healthcare also
- get rid of my bad temper
- be an awesome gf of boonleong <3
etc etc etc lol.
ever since i been together with b , i start to realise so many thing that i hasn't realise in the past :( baby taught me alot of stuff , guide me when i encounter problems , in fact he has always try to be there for me 24/7 . i use to complain about bi not bringing me out always . we always stay at home , but then i start to realise , sometime being at home with your love one isnt that boring anymore , though til now i still complain randomly lol.due to ultimate boredness :x but b always will try to bring me out if he is not tired :D told bibi about me being paranoid and having insecurites thoughts , he will always try to comfort me , i'm not that kind of selfish person , that wouldnt allow bi to do anything , i just want him to tell me everything , as long as i know , i wouldnt be unhappy nor paranoid or give him any stucked up temper.you know luh girls always need alot of pampering ~ even though he always never pamper me :x but i know he did try to , just that bi is so filled with pride -.- lol.feeling so sleepy at work now :(
yawns ~ i am missing my love love so much .
he say tonight might bring me go walk walk see cny clothes
but i doubt going le , cause he seems to be very tired , because of playing dota -.- til quite late . argh .
but if he is really tired , shall be nice and stay home with him :)
oh yar , suddenly remember my birthday is awesome thanks to august ; johanna & cos
and thanks to kuku august for sabo-ing me -.- 5second of hard liquor -.- fml . lol.
cause i dont usually drink & august say b is going to help me drink . in the end they dont let , & bi also got drink 5 second after me finished mine :)hees bi is so cute <3
realise some siams guys also very funny :)keep disturb b -.- like so gay
cry :'(
just recieve a call from bi
he got a deep cut & the top part de flesh on his hand drop off . i can feel the heartache man:(
he told me he damn pain :'( going see doc now
ask him to calll me asap after that
pain in his flesh , pain in my heart .
hate it when bi always play game til very late de luh
i always have to worry about him not having sufficent sleep de luh
2011 better be a good year ahead :)
cny is reaching in 1 week time :)
excited much for family gatherig ~
Messedsy&& 10:04 AM
